lunes, 20 de julio de 2015

Monster

Guided by my deepest thoughts, I come to the conclusion that I feel totally isolated from human society, I feel out of context and all category, my deepest fear is not that a crazy being from another universe come to consume my planet as they think many others, this is deeper than that, it is a demented horror full of doubt my mind and makes me feel that maybe I do, I do it for my own sake, but rather as one more in this hateful world supposedly civilized, do not like their dances, their games, their songs, their groups or northern side, makes me think that I, my real, my ethereal form may eventually disappear and become a being of those, one of the bunch living in a routine of madness and that fills me with the deepest and insane doubts, I see and I am filled with disgust at their routines with their lives as simple and miserable, do not want to be one more but I can not live isolated in a bubble glass, but they know I'm a monster who should fear, in my deepest sessions of self pleasure kill them again and again, I am the nightmare to which fear and causing sleep with the lights on , am the monster that lurks beneath the beds of her children waiting to feed my baser instincts, but do not worry, I do not kill or violate children, but adults, that's another story, but I'm not guilty of anything, I am a be monstrous and deformed, false and cruel society that nurtured for years, some think I'm very complex but the truth is that I am too simple, the night he came to my house these cops there was nothing to hide but was under police surveillance long claiming that I was a danger to society, be sociopath not know if it is a crime in this country of shit, the fact is that expected to make a mistake, I did it because I'm human, hire an underage prostitute and there to pay the alleged consequences of my actions, if they would bother succeeded, nothing compares to the screams of horror of those cops when they start the skin and showed them, the assistant district attorney not kill, but will understand that a man has Meneses and tastes, so the torture and rape and Japanese comics that I love, I can say I am a man after all, did not expect her to suffer for my Stockholm Syndrome, but boy make it clear that the horrific nature of man contains the deepest persepcion anti nature of reality in which we live, it only remains to say that I'm in a mental health clinic good level and good reputation as well and I'm good, Wardens have trust me and sometimes I help them with real crazy, they are not crazy, they are mentally ill, are real crazy out there no one to judge over them ...

martes, 14 de julio de 2015

Beyond the veil

Behind the Veil

The days were cold and dark in the empty streets of this city whose skyscrapers resemble cyclopean figures from other races unnamed dimencion or some other planet, cars terrible beings beetles insane view seen from above are to see a crazy dance vermin horrible insects beehive bright and blasphemous creation, horrible metallic aircraft symbionts always surrounded by birds that eat insects these birds (or eat them?), always dancing with their insipid lights around these terror birds, this is a blasphemous world created in the image and likeness of a pagan and amorphous god, with the invisible cyclopean size moving silently through the darkness of night, our dark caves are your home, your kingdom our discouraged and sick, sterile and fragile, is a crazy to think that we are only servants, slaves without freedom, I was thinking when I saw a beautiful prostitute only fifteen years old, with the eyes of the world disappeared, I saw and I saw, trembled at those blue eyes that smiled at my car He approached me and smiled;
Need company darling? -
I nodded petrified at that powerful and fiery eyes, he could not react to it at his feet and got in my car;
Come to a place private-
He drove as she told me where to drive, took me to a dark place, my fear is active, fear is the first instinct of survival is the man who tells you otherwise is lying or does not know what is fear;
-what do you want me to do? -
I need my wallet, a couple of bills and give her $ 500;
-surprise me-
she smiled and unzipped my pants and pulled out my member, she dont laught at least, but as a professional started playing and working, using her mouth and tongue, which was so nice, I do not really know how much I spend, when she over, she kiss me, rare in these women but was good, she turned the radio in my car, the recorded sound star to play, she listened attentively, I think never has been so emmabarrased eve  when I lost my virginity was  not so embarrassed, but she smiled and he looked at me;
-It is true-
He said that at the end of the recording;
-you like it? -
she smiled;
Undoubtedly, this is my life, my world, come on, I want to show you something-
she made me drive to a darker still road, I take a rather empty road for some intersection forgotten, drove through the terrible gaps to a house in the middle of nowhere, a man stood guard, the man saw us smiled and He opened the door, inside the house, the room was almost half-naked woman wearing transparent clothes, she took my jacket and proceeded inside that room watched carefully the house of the greatest pleasure he had never seen, not pornographic film resembled what I saw there, all the pleasures, all the sins of the flesh lived without promiscuity and hypocrisy, men with men, women with women, girls with older people, older whit children, depravity knew no bounds while listening to Bach in the background, a woman kissed and enjoyed the bodies of her three daughters, the lowest was 10 years, but the blue-eyed girl took me to a courtyard where a woman in a group of Sart Children, Statue of a woman standing in the courtyard of his resaban him, to my surprise, I noticed the statue of the goddess was Ishtar;
'This is the chapel of the goddess Ishtar of pleasure and desire, war and death, which has been chosen behind the veil by the goddess of view I watch and the kids were very excited, took me to the woman with blue eyes in an unfurnished room, the place was golden color abnormal, she smiled and show more of the house, I saw a man whose body was cut into separate parts but he stepped back and looked at me down moving his body as arachnid united only by nerves and veins, blood was everywhere and He smiled ...

I recoiled in horror that is transforming before my eyes joining the pieces one by one, like a toy, the man who came out of that smiled;

It's always the same with all men

Mattentive between fear and terror;

-calm down myfriend, I will not hurt you for now, this place is a place where the blood of men is prohibited

I watch it;

This place is connected to the Veil, a sacred place, nothing can enter here without autorisation guards here custodian-

I will look carefully;

'Why did you bring me here ?, Who are you? -

The man smiled at me;

-so that you are a dreamer, a dreamer and you need to enter the bowels of veil and teach us the lost glory, those who live here are beyond human comprehension, but few can understand-

I peeked into the room and then I saw a little girl playing with dice on floating hands, I felt like I was in the movie The Matrix, but it was frightening;

Here's wishes come true, passions are just part of our nature, going against them is to go against yourself, we need you to that mission, in return we will give you whatever you want, whether it is in our hands and ask to be yours-

I couldnt take it anymire, I ran,run by dark and crazy night, I came home and locked myself like in stone and mud, the days and sleepless nights, wondering if this was real, one morning came to my door a visit unexpected, Jehovah's Witnesses came to me, I let him talk and talk to them, somehow made me forget everything when I return to my darkness that covered my left, then I get to my question, God exists ?, then I thought, in background me that I wondered for years, since childhood, was not Joseph Smith to go to a forest will pray, then I knew, but wanted nothing to those men and women wanted something for myself, my selfishness and vanity were imposed, Take the jacket and car keys, went to look for the prostitute that day, but could not find it in the corner, the days passed, so I decided to go to the mansion in the middle of nowhere, while driving about to enter in the area that was, dressed very nice just like if a important day has come,  then I knew, she was expecting me, she enter thr car and drove to the small space of heaven or hell, we arrived, this time more people guarding the entrance, with the horror he had realized that men ate raw flesh, God knows what kind animal, then we realized that these men were the same as the monster waiting inside, inside that house and I expected, women and men waiting for me, had political, Famous artists and high bureaucracy, that would be a huge cult statues of the goddess Ishtar adorned the living room, the man left monster among those present and called the servants of the goddess to give me the sacred prostitution service, do not enter details that would be a waste of time, perhaps only a king as I enjoyed the night that lasted until dawn, but I could think of was my answer asking question, I sat alone with this creature who called Gaor;

I nodded my head and I felt more like going there, among the priestesses of Ishtar a girl I see a sort of tool or amulet, this was in the form of an Omega, but had symbols he had seen in his life, decided, I went with them to the threshold of call, a strange stone framework, for which I went through, the woman who had been incest with his own daughters warned me;

-which will see what actually exists through the eyes of the mind, do not be fooled guided by the charm of the goddess

I nodded and walked through the door without waiting for my destination ...

What I can tell you about that trip to veil ?, I only remember a long way in a place emptied that stretched almost infinite, but the relic showed me the way, while in the more powerful right direction shone the artifact , will walk (or vague) in the dark for nearly an hour, until it reaches a new framework in which I lose myself, expecting the worst, what I saw surprised me and I stood there stunned, it was a temple that would have been on my feet The place was full of statues of gods, was an inscription of three sides saying, God of Jews, Christians and Muslims, three different faces and see what it really was curious to see, touch rotated faces and changed one in the another, in the end I realized that was a kind of game, grim-faced, good humor and seemed check fury, then I understood that game beyond was Rah and many other Egyptian gods they seemed dusty and old, I was the with scaffolding and awe, Norse gods, Greek gods, Hindu gods, fear, but the best was yet to come, in the center of it all was Vishnu, holding all his statue shone and gave dim light there, look and smile, the statue was alive suddenly each of these gods woke up, I found a strange tongue and muttered about me, some laughing, some enraged as gods Habramanicos, Vishnu extended his hand for the artifact had the friendly and full face of peace and kindness, I extended my hand to the device, when it happened, like thunder came what I thought it was a ghost, a man with white skin and white hair like snow me cry;

Beams -¡no !, This is the only light you have in that sea of ​​darkness! -

the ghost disappeared as soon as he appeared, then it happened, all the gods to doubt infuriated me, surrounded me with his menacing eyes and their weapons and powers of the gods, I recoiled in terror, a child laughed aloud;

-not listen to them, they have no power over you unless you give them the light you carry one,

observe the red child;

-who Are you? -

rio child;

Only a shadow of the past that is about to become a ghost, anyway, do not think you came to see yes

watching attentively as these gods to the passage of that child were opened;

Is there one true God here? -

The boy smiled;

-written east, where there are many gods I'm not, because the gods are there where he, I am there and dwell with lighting

observe the child without understanding;

"Where is the light? -

ask;

-inside you-

the child did see these gods;

, created in the image and likeness of man, feeding your misery and spiritual poverty, those are the gods, beings created man to lose the sacred way

observe the child pulled a dagger, pierced Vishnu, who roared with anger, one by one the gods were destroyed, including Habramanico;

-¡de Thousand gods no one that is true! -

all gods fell facts powders;

-who Are you? -

asks frightened;

No, I'm .....-

The boy smiled;

It is No means nothing to you, but you can call, Damaerion-

the child began to glow with such force that nearly blind;

-Lucibel Crash when trying to destroy me, no, not be destroyed, because I am the son of the original Mother, I am Gamma has seen the layers of the heart of man and the universe, I am the one who should not have been born, II I am the fury of the forgotten and the innocent! -

my body went up in flames;

Am -¡yo Mitlatecutli! -

Maybe at that time I lost consciousness or died I thought ...

I was lost in the dark for a long time without me knowing, to my surprise, I woke up and the object shone with such intensity that I thought was so brilliant as a child, then I realized I had to be within the bowels of a being, flesh and pulsating things hui without knowing where he was going, the movements of the intestines got the terror, the sounds were horrible, hear sounds and insane screams that looked like someone was raped somewhere, her sobs were fearful, intestines, dark and infamous places invertebrates beings out with metal and oily skin, these creatures snarling and throwing whistling roar as they had long tongues and some could walk on two feet, they saw me and jumped on me and everything hui could run, got lost for vast parts cyclopean Galleries creature was clear and apparently lost my persecutors, who looks much that I thought sure I found the end of the road, there was a kind of stone statue of a woman but was at the end of the road, there I sat down and try to relax, unwind and relax and do not know how long I slept, but woke up before her, the statue was in front of me, at least twenty eyes wide body, her vulva out tentacles that bounced back and forth, she smiled at me and took me with their tentacles, I took it and played with my body tentacles as if to play I screamed and fell into darkness again ...

He woke up again, stood at the foot of a mountain, a man with his quiet remained on the mountain, it is observed, but did not seem to notice me, man cry;

-let me see your face! -

A voice answered;

no, no one will see my face certain morirá-

said a voice like thunder, shouting man;

How will I know that you are the God of my people, then? -

a terrible mist covered the place a familiar voice yell at me;

He Refer your face

for a moment I realized that the man with white hair and white skin another look, I obeyed and covered my face with the Omega symbol and a face appeared in the fog, a face appeared carved into the rock, with unknown symbols and bright Eyes;

'You are the king of kings! -

the man said, but could not resist the terrifying vision, something told me that being was not here in this world, this plane;

-he is a Aurizen ....-

the voice of the silver-haired man said, the simbol melted and covered my face, but the horror of seeing what was worse, the man appeared in front of me and I'm with do not know where ...

I woke up terrified, everyone saw me in that room dedicated to Ishtar, seeing them realized that it was over, but I have in the face the mask of silver, which was a symbol of Omega, in pocket was a Siberian flower, nobody bothered by my terrible look just the children, they make me a thousand questions, but I did swear to help me travel to Siberia and only then would I tell my details behind the veil ...